The Ride

Miss me? I know I haven't posted since like December 2011 but school has been time consuming. But the good thing is I have some chapters ready. =) Oh, Happy New Year, i know it's like 3 months in the new year but better late than never. Ok, I'm done talking. Enjoy and Comment. <3

“Damn I look good and cant nobody freak it like I could, Yea OK I got a little fat but, My shorty told me that he like it like that, I'm happy, Another nigga never can't be” The alarm clock blared from the speakers. The sun was shining directly in window, I stood up from the bed and put on my slipper to walk and open the blinds. I looked out the window to the neighborhood I called home, the suburbs. Families walking down the sidewalk and older people sitting on the porch watching the gardener manicure their yard. I felt happy for once, and relaxed. My door cracked open and a familiar arm was gripped around my waist.

“Hey Sexy Mama.” Dontae whispered in my ear and kissed my neck. I turned around and faced him.

“Hey bae, what you doing here?” I wrapped my arms around his neck.

“You know how I do. Naa, you were supposed to came and got me an hour ago but I can see you over slept. So I call the house and Kia came and picked a nigga up.” He licked his lips. “I didn’t know they made maternity lingerie.” He chuckled. I threw daggers at him with my eyes.

“See you know what, this is not even maternity, it’s plus size. You know them big girls be fresh too. And this is not sexy, it’s a boring t-shirt.” I looked down at myself as far as I could. I did a quick spin.

“Plus Size? Baby, you need to hurry up and have this baby. I want my perfect size back. But that look like lingerie when you standing in that window. I see all your little goodies right through it.” He came closer to me and put me in his embrace. I inhaled his scent.

“You so silly boy. I’m glad your home.” He moved my big, wavy poof of hair out the way and kissed my neck.

“I’m glad to be home. I love you Erika.” He spoke directly in my eyes. That warmed my heart.

“I love you too.” I said softly. He lifted my chin up and his lips touched mine. I sucked on his bottom lip as he sucked on mine. With every kiss the more passionate it got. He slowly made our way to bed. He started taking off his shirt and sliding off his sweatpants. As more pieces of clothing hit the ground, the more I felt uncomfortable. I pushed his lips from off of mine.

“What’s wrong?” He moaned.

“I can’t do this.” I shook my head. “It’s like we are rushing it. I don’t feel like this is the right place and time.” I picked up his shirt and sweatpants and handed to him. “I think you should go up to your room.” I attempted to get off the bed. But he held me down.

“This is my room. But we don’t have to do anything right now. Let’s just cuddle and enjoy each other’s company. I just was to smell the scent of hair. I want to see how your face lights up and your dimple show when you laughing. I want to see your nose scrunch up when you get mad or hear something nasty. And mostly I want to see you bite your bottom lip. I know you want something then.” He sat back down beside me as he held my hand. After multiple tries of me getting comfortable we ended up in the perfect cuddle.

“Tell me the story about the first time you saw me.” I whispered to him as my eyes wandered around the ceiling.

“I told you this story about 10 times already. You need a new story.” He laughed as I turned to him and popped out my lip.

“I want to hear it again. Maybe this time I will add my point of view. You never heard that.” I gave him a sweet smile exposing my dimple.

“Last time.” I kissed his cheek and turned back around. He started telling the story. “Alright, so it all started after 4^th period. I had gym and I was chillin by the locker room. Then the nigga Trey was like ‘Tae, look at them girls right there. They got future baby mama written all over them.’ I looked up and saw you with two other girls, Kia and Julissa. I remember what you had on, It was some tight black jeans, a shirt that say ‘No Money, No Job, No Luck’ and you had on some black and white 13’s. I looked at you walking and smiling not even looking at my way. Trey was like, “The middle one is bad, and the one on the left.”  I replied “The middle one mine homey.” The rest of that period, I was hype. I was going to go look for you. I saw you sitting in the library by yourself. So I approached you and was like ‘Sup ma?’ You scrunched your nose up and responded ‘Hi.’ Then you got up and walked away. At the moment, I knew I had to work for you. I had a girl and everything but she won’t like you. The next time I saw you, you saw standing beside your old Lexus. It was some dude in your face, yelling and shit and you were just sitting their crying. Then when he left, I saw you sitting in your car just crying. I had to come and talk to you; your voice was so sweet and innocent then. Even with the tears in your eyes, I saw your beauty shine through your eyes. I asked you what grade you were in and you said sophomore, I was shocked. I was a senior and this little sophomore had me whipped. Then the more we talked sitting in your car, the more I wanted to keep the smile on your face. I had to have you. And I guess my planned work.” He kissed my neck. “Now, let me hear what you got to say.”

“Ok, mines not as good as yours though.” I took a deep breath. “Well, I was skipping 4^th period I was supposed to be in Science. Julissa wanted to go by the gym because she was talking to your friend Zach I think then. And it was a lot of drama and she wanted to see him and all this bull. I remember walking pass yall and see you in the corner of my eye. I was like ‘papi got it going on,’ in my head. Then I started to think what a senior wants with a sophomore. So I kind of relaxed all my thoughts of you. When I was in the library, I saw you come up to me. I was like what in the world to this nigga want. You came and spoke, I didn’t know what to say to you so I just walked away. I wasn’t that good in talking to boys. All the boyfriends I had before you, just forcefully asked me out. And that’s what you saw. That boy’s name was Nick. We talked for like a week, he was mad I wouldn’t have sex with him. So he cussed me out. My emotional tail just sat there and cried. Then when he left and I saw you, I thought you was my knight in shining armor. At that very moment, I fell in love with you, I never stopped.” I chuckled. “I guess Trey was right when he said I got baby mama written all over me.”

“Yeah, he was. I wish I can call him and tell him. We lost contact after high school.” He laughed as he rubbed my stomach.

“He knows. He and Julissa got together. She is 8 months pregnant. I still talk to her. They supposed to get married after the baby comes. I would have never thought them two fools would end up together.” We both laughed.

“I need to hit that nigga up one day.” He replied.

“He will be at DJ’s party. Trey better come with Julissa. I invited both of them.” I turned off my side to my back. I found the remote beside me and turned on the television. “Oh, this is my show.” I smiled ear to ear while Dontae frowned up at the television.

“Yo Gabba Gabba? Oh hell no. We bout to watch some sports center up in here.” He grabbed the remote from my hand and turned it to ESPN. I reached to grabbed the remote and turned back to PBS kids. I placed the remote on my left side where he can’t reach. He got on top of me hold his weight up with his arm. I stared deep into his eyes while he stared at mine.  I was breathing a little too fast from laughing and moving. He started move closer and closer to my face, his breath smelled peppermint. His lips graced mine and his tongue touched my lips causing my lips to open letting it in. He placed one of his under my chin and I placed both of my arms around his neck. The more passionate our kiss got, he changed positions. He laid beside me as his hands started to roam my body. He lifted up my shirt, exposing my huge stomach and my boobs. His lips move down towards his nipples, causing me to let out a soft moan. I forgot when you’re pregnant you reach an orgasm faster. I quickly pushed him away again.

“I’m sorry bae. I was caught in the moment.” He propped his head up with his elbows. I rubbed his face with the back of my hand.

“It’s ok. I don’t want to rush it. I’m still not over what happen earlier. I know it was a couple months ago but I feel like yesterday.” I rolled my eyes and started to get up.

“Is that your excuse? After all we been through, you still can’t fully commit to me again. You all I got. You was the only one there when I was in hospital. What can I do to prove to you I’m fully here?” I stood up and stared at him.

“Just give me time.” I shook my head and went to the bathroom.

“Time, that’s all? See if you don’t wanna be with me, let me know. I don’t want to pressure you.” He yelled from in the room, I slowly walk back to where he was sitting on the edge of the bed.

“That’s funny. Last time I remember, you were the one cheating. I was the one dumbfound. I just don’t want to put my guard down just yet. And if you think about leaving me while I’m pregnant with your child, you got another thing coming. I’m not a stupid, little immature girl. You will pay me child support. So don’t even go that route.” I laughed at my anger. Dontae got up and stood in my face and look down at me.

“Mane, go somewhere with all that. I will be back later.” He turned and slammed the door behind him. I took a deep breath and went back to the bathroom. I turned on the shower and all my thoughts came rushing back to my head.

‘This is who I want to spend the rest of my life with? Why do I keep aggravating him? I want my baby to have a happy family, in order for this to happen I need to change myself. It’s my entire fault that he doesn’t want to be with me.’

I got out the shower in went back into my room. I quickly got dress; I wanted to see my twins. I walked out my room, next door to where the twins were just starting to wake up. I peeped over at Krystal first who was laughing and playing with her feet. I picked her up and went to the changing table. I quickly changed her and got her clean and put her on a nice dress. I put her in the swing, while I moved on to Kristen. She was starting to whine a little bit. I picked her up and repeated the same thing I did to Krystal. As I put Kristen in the swing, I sat down in front of the swings staring at them.

“I wish you two could talk and walk already.” I played with their toes. “Where should we go today? I was thinking of the mall. I need to buy you two a new outfit for DJ’s party tomorrow.” They both started to laugh showing their toothless smile. I laughed along with them. I got up and picked up both twins and carried them into living room. I sat the down on the play mat as I went to the kitchen to get some cereal. I sat back down on the sofa.

“Kia or Jessica? Who wants to go to the mall?” I screamed up the steps. Nobody answered. “Hello, anybody up there?” I screamed again.

“They took DJ to Chuck E Chesse, It’s just me and you.” Dontae said as he came down the steps.

“Oh, I thought you were gone.” I placed my bowl on the table. He came and sat down beside me.

“Why would you think that?” He gave me a curious look; I just looked down at the twins crawling around. “They are getting big now.” I laughed.

“Yeah, they are busy for their age. They already crawling and trying to pull up.” I felt him glance over at me.

“So, what about this mall thing? I want to go.” I gave him a side eye.

“Alright, get the stroller from the closet over there and put it in the car. And get the car seats from out their room.” I said as I got up and put my bowl in the dishwasher.

“Yes, sir Master.” He said in an old slave accent. I laughed.

“Boy shut up.” I went back to where the twins were sitting up laughing along with me. Their dimples, just like mine, were showing. I think they look just like me. I grabbed their car seats, which Dontae placed on the couch and strapped them in. They was content playing with their feet, I walked back into their room to get the diaper bag. I think Jessica or Kia knew I wanted to go out today, they bag was already packed all I need was the bottles. I carried the diaper bag back to the living room, and fixed the bottles. Once I done all that, Dontae was already putting the twins in the car. I grabbed my purse and the diaper bag and was out the door.